sleeping in on saturdays

This past week, I could feel it in my bones, in my soul. It was time to make a change. Breaking down on a rainy Monday, watching the traffic buzz by, I decided something needs to change. Live simple. Take my life and cut the muck out and draw the good in. Get off the computer and in the air. Get out of the stuffy rooms and get into the trees and books I have stacked on my shelves.

Instead of just being, and walking through this life, day to day, doing nothing to enrich my life, I am going to make small changes. Cleaning out my house and garage, picking up a book or two instead of turning on the TV. Painting... ahh what a night! Saving my money and feeling what It is like to eat a fridge down or make food from scratch. Live off what I got and don't need anything for a while. Lean on those that are sticking around and make a pie for them! discover guitar again, break my weak fingers into those strings and sing to the night. rediscover writing and feeling. I used to get so deep, try and open up again.

Speak to God rather then to myself...
Give away what I don't need. and Cherish what and who I have.

I have come undone at the seams, slipping down the middle, not wanting to get into routine, not wanting to grow up quite yet...

need that adventure, that whisper in the night, the candlelight with tea and a cozy blanket. and the books and music and people who make my life full and complete.

i'm off.

The White Buffalo - Sleepy Little Town

Comments

april 10th 2017

here. i am starting new. i feel like i have said that so many times. and i have. i really have.... sigh. how is this time different from the rest? i have always been strong, carefree, spontaneous, adventuresome, life-is-too-short-kinda-way girl. but something in the last year has turned my insides into a different place. i ignore my body, i ignore my inner self CRYING out. stop. stop. please just stop. i have put everyone else in front of myself. i have decided to take care of everyone and everything before i get in some time for me. to take care of my body. my mind. my faith. my heart. even as i type this, i am thinking of dinner i need to make tonight and the laundry, vacuuming, sweeping, oh and the dog needs to be walked. yes, and i can pay those bills later too........ where is my health, wellbeing SELF fit into this? my face shows the beat down i have been giving my internal organs. food after food after lack of good exercise, good movement. i am planting a garden out back - h...

born to explore!

I have always craved adventure. And I always was striving for the next one. When you begin to work every day, all day and only have a couple days off a week, you begin to need adventure. I NEED AN ADVENTRUE. I need to feel the trees, blowing in the wind, their sweet sweet smell of pine and maple. I need to feel uneven ground, get a little dirty, and feel the demand of my body to move forward. I need to feel the air outside… oh what a concept. Outside. I sit in a cubicle, 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. I am blessed, like I say all the time... I have a big window. I’m blessed again, but I want more than to look outside while breathing inside air. I long to be out, in the warm, cold air. I guess when you are locked up for so long your body starts craving the outside. So I decided to adventure, this Spring, Summer and Fall. I have a couple friends and my boyfriend who are in for the challenge. I’m going to push myself to backpack, hike, swim, climb, ca...

happening

I have found a love, so deep and true. nothing, and I mean in life prepared me for such a beautiful blessing. I never thought this, he, was in existence - that he would ever be for me. I remember praying and looking but just thought, naw - can't work this good for me. But it did. He is here. and he isn't going anywhere. My sweet sweet God - my savior above, saw my broken heart - healed my bones and mended be back together. all the while crafting the sneakiest of adventures. and here he is, with me. brought to me by no one other than the God I live for. He, in the photo. my life, my love. until my body breathes its last breath, I will love him with every fiber within my soul - with everything I ever am. Through the storms and big open skies, he will be my companion, my best friend, my lover, my hope and my adventure. the greatest gift I could ever receive. I need nothing more. I am full.

megan the wanderer

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