wild days, I will find you

there are times when I think I am still SO young... I'll get this want deep within me to paint my nails black, ditch work and just drive. I get this want to just let it all go, have no responsibilities, and just run. Make mistakes, fall in love again and again, photograph anything and everything, dance on table tops, drink to much, stay up late to watch the stars and just live.

I'll be driving home from work, thinking... lets just go! I have a full tank of gas, I can get new clothes, bills are paid for the month.. lets just go wild for a week. Hike and move, laugh and cry and be happy.

but I always bounce back, look at the clock and say "oh man... its 8:30PM... I should start getting ready for bed." HOW BORING.

I tattooed myself a few months ago - wanting something to remind me of how far I have come and how much God has been my influence in my life. I also got it to just FEEL something. Anything. In the moment of getting the tattoo, I felt young, alive and FREE. One moment, simple and steady. I felt here.

I am trying to rediscover life as a mid twenty something working full time and paying a mortgage. How does one find the time to explore, adventure and be young and alive??

I am still trying to find that out, one moment at a time. One step at a time.

I will find it - deep within my soul there is a young and restless girl who is fighting to be heard.