wild days, I will find you

there are times when I think I am still SO young... I'll get this want deep within me to paint my nails black, ditch work and just drive. I get this want to just let it all go, have no responsibilities, and just run. Make mistakes, fall in love again and again, photograph anything and everything, dance on table tops, drink to much, stay up late to watch the stars and just live.

I'll be driving home from work, thinking... lets just go! I have a full tank of gas, I can get new clothes, bills are paid for the month.. lets just go wild for a week. Hike and move, laugh and cry and be happy.

but I always bounce back, look at the clock and say "oh man... its 8:30PM... I should start getting ready for bed." HOW BORING.

I tattooed myself a few months ago - wanting something to remind me of how far I have come and how much God has been my influence in my life. I also got it to just FEEL something. Anything. In the moment of getting the tattoo, I felt young, alive and FREE. One moment, simple and steady. I felt here.

I am trying to rediscover life as a mid twenty something working full time and paying a mortgage. How does one find the time to explore, adventure and be young and alive??

I am still trying to find that out, one moment at a time. One step at a time.

I will find it - deep within my soul there is a young and restless girl who is fighting to be heard.

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things

"Frugality is one of the most beautiful and joyful words in the English language, and yet one that we are culturally cut off from understanding and enjoying. The consumption society has made us feel that happiness lies in having things, and has failed to teach us the happiness of not having things." - Elise Boulding

river wild.

This photo is the background of my computer at work. It reminds me to focus on not getting caught up in the craziness of the week. That this in-grained desire for something bigger is normal. That we were not made for this world, but while we are here we must not miss the good parts. River Wild. There is a peace in the woods, in the dark of the trees. In the rain and under the branches. I hear whispers of wind and cheers of wildlife. I hear Hillsong music and the light rain covering the deep. The streams a-flowin and the rush of the wide-open scapes. OPEN HEAVEN - RIVER WILD. This world today has been so rearranged by MAN that we sometimes can't recognize it for what is was in the pure state of which it was created. So I am reminded, reminded to take care. To leave no damaging mark but to kiss the earth gently - To pray, listen and speak less. “If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the ...

heart of life

one photo from the Portland adventure weekend. Self discovery, letting go, finding creativity again and learning about life. With the best of people. A weekend of wonder - simple, yet just what I needed. Full.

megan the wanderer

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