chaos is already underway

"So, kid, you’ve got to live,

and not just that stoic existence you’ve
been stomping trough all this time.

You’ve got to be kind,

you’ve got to fall in love,

fall out of love,

no matter how much it hurts

because my god,

it’s worth it.

Don’t let the world turn you to stone;

you’ve got to feel.

And sometimes,

your heart will threaten

to march right out of your chest

because you’re so fucking full of it all-

of the people,

the places,

the endless days,

the eternal nights-

and kid, that’s fine.

Be brave.

Courage isn’t measured by the
number of people you’ve turned away

or by the counts of the nights you’ve

spent alone because you refuse to

give someone the chance to love you.

Being alone is not poetic;

you’ve got to let them in.

Let them peel back your skin

and waltz into your bloodstream

and love them,

love them,

love them.

And finally, kid,

your life has already begun.
Stop waiting.

Chaos is already underway."

- Emily Palermo, from “A Lesson in Entropy”

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april 10th 2017

here. i am starting new. i feel like i have said that so many times. and i have. i really have.... sigh. how is this time different from the rest? i have always been strong, carefree, spontaneous, adventuresome, life-is-too-short-kinda-way girl. but something in the last year has turned my insides into a different place. i ignore my body, i ignore my inner self CRYING out. stop. stop. please just stop. i have put everyone else in front of myself. i have decided to take care of everyone and everything before i get in some time for me. to take care of my body. my mind. my faith. my heart. even as i type this, i am thinking of dinner i need to make tonight and the laundry, vacuuming, sweeping, oh and the dog needs to be walked. yes, and i can pay those bills later too........ where is my health, wellbeing SELF fit into this? my face shows the beat down i have been giving my internal organs. food after food after lack of good exercise, good movement. i am planting a garden out back - h...

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